So this week I have been watching the news… feeling a mixture of anger, fear, disgust and helplessness. I needed to break away from the TV and do something constructive!
When I entered my studio, this portrait was right in front of me. It has been on my design wall for a few months, pieced together but not quilted.
So I took a second look at it. It was mostly red and black. Stark. Ominous. Looking like a person who is preparing for the worst.
It seemed like a good place to work out my anxieties.
I used blue threads to represent patience, listening, meditation and thought, as a way to “cool down” the hot colors in the fabrics which represent conflict, noise, anger and fear.
I like the way the colors seem to vibrate next to each other. It looks uncomfortable and jumpy. Like a person who is quietly freaking out.
Finishing this portrait gave me a sense of accomplishment and control. In the end, I felt a lot better.
Of course the same problems remain in the world, and I still have anxieties about the future. But at least I didn’t spend all day stewing about it. If nothing else, I occupied my brain for several hours with lines and colors instead of worry and frustration. Good therapy!